Showing posts with label christianity. Show all posts
Showing posts with label christianity. Show all posts

Sunday, August 19, 2012

I love Jesus, but I Hate His Wife

You all remember this guy, right?


It's a great video in a lot of ways. I resonate with his call to get back to the person of Jesus and to strip away the establishment, get rid of "religious professionals," follow Christ, love people, and die to self. Peaches.

However.....his voice echoes the many Christians in the Western Church right now who are disenchanted with the institution...and are walking away from the church disillusioned, burned out, and frustrated.

Oh man. I feel that!

From the religious right claiming a corner on all things moral, to plenty in the American Church parading patriotism hand-in-hand with theological orthodoxy, to different churches overemphasizing certain political hot points (abortion, illegal immigration, gay marriage) to the neglect of others (caring for the poor, living generously, combating sickness and poverty), to the Rob Bell and universalism fiasco, to the mind-numbing amassing of denominations behind certain theological giants while greatly demonizing others, to some denominations neglecting church history/the liturgical calendar/pursuit of intellectual faith altogether, to other denominations overemphasizing education/intellectualism but neglecting religious affections/faith, to disgusting scandal after scandal...

Guh. Who WOULDN'T want to pack up their stuff and poop on the floor and leave?

Not that our deep discontent is that surprising...Matt Carter, pastor of the Austin Stone church in Austin, Texas, talks about how we as a culture have
~a serious problem with commitment
~a serious problem with authority
So aside from the fact that we are already predispositioned to these issues straight out the womb (Psalm 51:5), we have our socio/historic location working against us, as well.

I've felt the pull to disassociate completely from the local church more times than I've ever admitted to anybody. Fortunately (and unfortunately?), it's not that simple.

Two realities hit me pretty hard.

1. It's an issue of Biblical obedience.

Isolation is our default and our demise.
Our hearts are hopelessly wicked and deceitful. Jer 17:9
Spur each other on to love and good deeds.
(how?) Do not forsake meeting together. Heb 10:24-25

We need people to bump up against to be more like Christ.
Iron sharpens iron. Pro 27:17
We expose sin in each other and call each other to repentance. Matt 18:15-20

We need others to keep watch over our souls. (this is big)
Obey your leaders and submit to them,
for they are keeping watch over your soul. Hebrews 13:17

If there is no Biblical requirement for you to belong to a local body...then to which leaders are you as a believer supposed to obey and submit? Local church elders. Titus 1:5 (Paul left Titus in Crete to appoint elders in every town)
Let's be honest with ourselves...the Epistles are fraught with Paul addressing, setting up, rebuking, or praising organized local churches.
(He was often frustrated with them, as well! We're in good company.)

I think this merits more digging into for a sec.
Why would I need someone to keep watch over my soul?

As Matt Carter of the Austin Stone church puts it:
"Scripture is teaching YOU--Christian--you have an enemy.
And he is smarter than you, he is stronger than you, he is wiser than you, he is more determined than you, and he has one desire for your life and that is to TAKE YOU OUT."

According to Scripture, Satan is not in hell. He's here. Now. (1 Peter 5:8, Ephesians 6:12)
We can't afford to be naive, family. We are at war.
He canNOT take away your place in Jesus--that's the beauty of the gospel (John 10:28 "No one can snatch them out of My hand).
But he CAN attack every other area of your life. Your intellect. Your interests. Your hobbies. Your marriage. Your kids. Your health. Your vocation. Your emotions. Your friendships. Your purity.

We need a place of protection. A place for someone to keep watch over our souls.
Don't believe me?
I Corinthians 5:1-5 (This is huge, y'all!)
In this passage, Paul is instructing the church to remove a sexually immoral, unrepentant believer from the fellowship and to "give him over to Satan for the destruction of the flesh, so that his spirit may be saved in the day of the Lord."
I believe this means that there is protection from the enemy afforded in the gathering of believers and submission to church authority. The enemy, it appears, has much greater access to this individual than if he were within the fellowship.


So...it seems from what we've just read that it's pretty clear...

We have to do some pretty lethal jacking with Scripture to justify leaving the local church.
Now, if we want to have a discussion about the inerrancy and infallibility of the Bible, we can have that discussion.
Because that's a discussion we MUST have if we're going to disassociate from the local church in the name of...piety? Enlightenment? "Real" Christianity? Badassery?


So to recap #1: obedience. sanctification. protection.


2. It's the Father's very heart.

This one really gets me.
See, active participation in a local body is not just a mandate. It's not arbitrary.

It's visionary.

Ephesians 4:2-7--"...with all humility and gentleness, with patience, bearing with one another in love, eager to maintain the unity of the Spirit in the bond of peace. There is one body and one Spirit--just as you were called to the one hope that belongs to your call--one Lord, one faith, one baptism...but grace was given to each one of us according to the measure of Christ's gift.


We cannot say we love Jesus if we do not love what He loves. He loves the Church deeply and intimately based on nothing other than the fact that He is good and loves us when we're not.

This isn't doctrine. This is Gospel.

He is faithful to His bride in spite of the fact that she isn't always (or often) faithful to Him. This above all, I think, supercedes any reason we could muster to think we're above actively engaging in a local body.


Ephesians 5:25-30..."...Christ loved the church and gave himself up for her, that he might sanctify her, having cleansed her by the washing of water with the word, so that he might present the church to himself in splendor... For no one ever hated his own flesh, but nourishes and cherishes it, just as Christ does the church, because we are members of his body.



Looking into my own heart about it, walking away from the local church isn't just an act of Biblical disobedience for a believer...it's also an act of glaring arrogance.
To behave like I'm not in a war, to overestimate my own ability to stand against the enemy alone, to think much of myself in my pious isolation and well-reasoned enlightenment that I could somehow outsmart or outscheme the most serious and formidable enemy I could imagine OR wade through and successfully discern pursuing Christ on my own...is not to take God at His word that I am constantly as a sheep to be slaughtered.


Here's some more reality. God called us out of darkness and separation into fellowship with Him for a specific purpose in His story, and as His child you were created with a specific role to play in His body. No one else was meant to do it, and no one else can. (I Cor. 12)

Does this mean we resign ourselves to our despondence and succumb to the homogenizing effects of the ills of American evangelicalism? Absolutely not. Paul (and plenty of Church fathers and church participants over time--do some homework!) were constantly brawling with the local church, calling her to excellence and repentance. Admonishing them to care for widows, orphans, and the poor. Challenging them to steward their money well. Exhorting them to love better. But they did it as participants.

Part of loving someone (in this case, the Bride of Christ) is accepting their brokenness and flaws while acknowledging your own brokenness and flaws and walking toward excellence with them. We do it with our friends and families everyday.
And this is, most certainly, our family. Our big, crazy, broken, marvelous family whose sanctification is being worked out by a perfect and loving Husband.



Three quotes on this by my favorite author, then I'm done. Promise.

C.S. Lewis writes about his own gradual understanding of Christ's vision for the church in God in the Dock:
When I first became a Christian...I thought that I could do it on my own, by retiring to my rooms and reading theology, and I wouldn't go to the churches...But as I went on I saw the great merit of it. I came up against different people of quite different outlooks and different education, and then gradually my conceit just began peeling off. I realized that the hymns (which were just sixth-rate music) were, nevertheless, being sung with devotion and benefit by an old saint in elastic-side boots in the opposite pew, and then you realize that you aren't fit to clean those boots. It gets you out of your solitary conceit.

I adore how he puts it in Mere Christianity:
It is at her centre, where her truest children dwell, that each communion is really closest to every other in spirit, if not doctrine. And this suggests at the centre of each there is something, or a Someone, who against all divergences of belief, all differences of temperament, all memories of mutual persecution, speaks with the same voice.

And then here in Letters of C.S. Lewis:
For the Church is not a human society of people united by their natural affinities, but the Body of Christ, in which all members, however different, (and He rejoices in their differences and by no means wishes to iron them out), must share the common life, complementing and helping one another precisely by their differences.



Friday, June 29, 2012

A Heart Divided and a Divine Crescendo

The blog...it has been resurrected! During my summer break I've been rather prolific with my journaling, and I've got at least a dozen blog posts either already on paper or ready to be put there. So.

Part of my personality gets disproportionately excited about things way in advance. I pack for trips at least a week ahead of time, even if I have to wear the clothes I packed and wash/repack them. I make countdowns before I have plans finalized. I make theme songs in my head with memory montages of what I think this experience will be like, whatever it may be.

That being said...I'm moving to Phoenix in a year! Yes, a year. As in... a while from now.

Waiting for me in Phoenix are friendships to be made and renewed, grad school, living in the same city as my family after 7 years of living apart, exciting ministry opportunities at church, and probably all other kinds of crazy business. Who wouldn't be stoked?

The problem is...God has called me to be His hands and feet HERE. Where I am right now. To be a part of the Kingdom and be an agent of renewal in my immediate context. He has things to teach me about Himself and myself...now. 

Along with this great gift of enthusiasm and hope that God has engrained in my genetic makeup and socialization, my heart has twisted it into a propensity to struggle to live in the moment.

I've visited Phoenix four times in 2012 already, and every time I return to Dallas, the longing for what's next grows. I long for this sanctification process to see me more like Christ, to see this education get me into a career, to see this healing of my heart since the divorce ready for something new.

At the heart of this longing, though, is a DEEP DISCONTENT with Christ and a glaring lack of gratitude and awareness of where He's put me...now.

I've always had this bittersweet longing for heaven. I live in a reality of being given this beautiful life, gifts in the moment that make my heart burst with joy. I honestly tremble on a regular basis (maybe I should get that looked at...). But really, I marvel at the way Christ is using me to advance His kingdom...or even just when I get to experience and revel in the sweet things of this life.

BUT...while I experience the fullness of the abundant life, my heart aches to be completely absorbed into these things I love (as C.S. Lewis puts it). I want to be with my friends for-freaking-ever. Suspending relationships or maintaining them over distance can be excruciating. Even in ministry and service I experience a strain...the thrill of being used by Christ in a moment is something that catches my breath in my chest when the opportunity is over. I long for these things even AS I experience them, knowing they'll soon be gone. My heart is on the verge of breaking every time. The thought that this time, this situation, this experience won't last is...staggering.

And so in the same way I long for the permanence heaven, I long for what's next in this life. I long for constant truth, peace, and justice, for everyone to be fully known, and especially for all plans to be made clear. I long for laughs to keep going, hugs to linger, and for relationships to get closer. I ache for a divine crescendo that constantly pushes forward and leads...somewhere other than where I am. 

Don't get me wrong--where I am is fine...great, even! It's fun or challenging or hard or whatever it needs to be. But it's not whatever's is coming next...because whatever's next SURELY is going to be more life-giving than the present, right? Surely whenever I get THERE, I'll understand God's will/have finally made it/be awesome/be on the right track/have graduated/be a grown up/whatever.

When we do this, we can't soak up the moments as they come. We become so heavenly minded that we're no earthly good. We become useless to ourselves, useless to others, and completely ineffective for Christ as discontentment is inherently self-focused and the antithesis of all things remotely having to do with Jesus. Humbling ourselves and walking in obedience become acts to secure future blessings rather than get to know God's heart and will for our lives NOW.

And in doing this, we find our joy in the created rather than the Creator.